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rainonparade
23 April 2012 @ 03:07 am
Ugh ugh ugh.

It's just past 3, I'm barely on the fourth page of this paper and I am exhausted. I really shouldn't have put this off, but I really have no one else to blame. This was all me. I'm the one who goofed off all weekend.

I'm the one who was browsing the internet rather than looking for sources.

I'm the one who is post this stupid blog entry instead of typing this paper.

I am also the one who has a class in 5 hours. 

Ugh.
 
 
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
 
 
rainonparade
26 February 2012 @ 11:45 pm
I've always had a fondness for Little Red, but really I love lots of fairy tales. Last summer, I was working my way through Grimm's Fairy Tales, and I read so many that I had never even heard of. I loved Donkeyskin a lot. Do they have to be Germanic? If I can branch out into myths, I've always loved Psyche and Eros' love story. What can I say? I'm a sucker for a happy ending.
What is your favorite fairytale, and why?
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
 
 
rainonparade
05 November 2011 @ 06:52 pm
I just don't know anymore. I'm at college, but it's not great. Not bad, but I'm not really loving it either. It just is. I don't know if I just have an overly romanticized view of life or what, but I always felt like college was supposed to be this great experience and it just feels like a continuation of high school.

I liked high school and all, I was just hoping to find something new. The only new thing I have really found is way too much free time.

It's funny, even though this journal is out there for the whole internet to read, I don't think anyone actually reads it. I'm just typing to myself here. And it's a little lonely. I'm a little lonely and a little unhappy.

It's a weird place for me. I would say that I am normally a pretty happy person, but I've made some huge mistakes over this past summer and I'm still kicking myself over them. 

I hate what I've done. I hate myself for what I've done. In the grand scheme of things, it wasn't even that bad. I didn't kill anyone, I didn't cheat on anyone, but it was still awful and I still did it.

He deserved so much better. I just can't be that person. Not for him.
 
 
rainonparade
30 October 2011 @ 06:11 pm
When was the last time you were frightened out of your wits? Spooky stories welcome!
Went to a haunted corn maze on Friday night. Boy, was that a boost of adrenaline. When the guy with the chainsaw came after us, my buddy ripped her arm out of mine, shoved through our other two friends, and booked it. The two friends she shoved jetted off too, leaving me by myself. Terrifying. 
 
 
rainonparade
17 October 2011 @ 12:17 am
Do you keep your LiveJournal a secret from someone?
Well, not my LJ. I sometimes wish it was a secret, but anyone I know who wants to find it definitely can. I have another blog though that I've kept secret from some people I know.
 
 
 
rainonparade
15 August 2011 @ 12:22 pm
Are you superstitious? Do you have any customs or special rituals that you perform for good luck?


I'm a little embarrassed to admit it, but I am superstitious. I don't really do anything specifically for good luck, but I do consciously try to avoid gathering bad luck. I tend to avoid cracks on the sidewalk. I hold my breath and cross my fingers when passing graveyards. I always throw salt over my shoulder when I spill it. And if I see a penny on the ground, I pick it up. That's not so much good luck, as it is someone in heaven thinking of you.
 
 
 
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
 
 
rainonparade
02 January 2011 @ 07:31 pm
I just feel like everything has changed.  I, myself, have changed so much since my last post.  It's almost embarrassing to read over my old entries.  It's amazing how much life can change in just a few years.  Looking back, I like to think I have mellowed out.  I definitely don't cuss as much. (Hardly ever, in fact.)  I still love Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy, but it not my entire life anymore.  Life and death have happened in my hiatus and I don't think any of my old online buddies are around anymore.  At least, I haven't had contact in more than a year.  I don't know if we would even be friends anymore.  I'm no longer the same person.

2011 has officially begun and I'm hoping for a better year.  I've gone back and edited some of the more embarrassing old posts, but I didn't delete everything like I originally planned to.  It feels too much like losing my old self.  I may not be proud of what I wrote, but I did write it.  I was such a... such a freshman.

I'm getting through my last year of high school.  Almost done and so glad.  I am not ready for college yet, but I'll get there soon.

Here's to the future and eternally evolving.  No one wants to truly remain static, do they?
 
 
rainonparade
22 November 2009 @ 12:40 am
...  
I'm just not so happy with life right now.
 
 
rainonparade
09 April 2009 @ 09:50 pm
:D  
I gave blood for the first time yesterday.

I didn't faint, so I'm really glad.

I'm also really far behind on my art project.  Fuck.
 
 
Current Mood: okayaltruistic
 
 
rainonparade
06 April 2009 @ 06:26 pm
Wow.  
I have been really half-assed about this journal.

But I do love it so~!

School and this horrid thing called "real life" have been dragging me down.

What have I done, you ask?

I don't want to list everything, but I did join track.             And got injured the day before the first meet.  I'm fine now, but we only have 3 meets left.  I don't think I'll be competing.  I'm so far behind on training.

I'm really hating my English class right now.
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